Reading Materials

Does what you read, show what sort of person you are? Maybe you can tell me whether there is any correlation btwn the two?

I have to say that my reading behavior tend to skew more to the romance sort of category. Hey!, What can I say, I am die hard romantic. I dream too much ,I think. So these books sort of give me the lead to dream and fantasize. Well its not like i don't read other types of books but majority of what I read tend to fall into this category, though.

Anyways, since its a new year and all, I told myself that I would like to make it point to stay away from these "romance" sorta books. But alas, its not working well so far. Well, I try to borrow books from those book rental shops. I usually go to the one in Bangsar, its kinda small and crammed up but the good part is if you want a book and its not in the shelfs and its out with some other customers, they will call you once the book gets checked in. Pretty good aye?

Ok, i went there this month, returned the Da Vincci Code by Dan Brown. You should see how, as soon as I returned the book walked away from the counter, the lady picks up the phone and start dialing. Then I heard her say, ".... the book you wanted Da Vincci Code is in.. when can you come by to pick up?" WA LAU EH.. talk about being efficient.

Like I said before, I wanted a new start in this new year. Maybe a new reading habit would do me good. But a drastic change would probably put me into a serious withdrawal state. So I decided, fine, I would borrow 2 books, one romance and the other... some other sort. Okie, I had no choice but to get the shop assistant to help me out. So she recommended this book called.. The avenger or something like that.. haha. That shows I haven't read it yet. But I have finished the romance one already like 2 days after I borrowed it.

Then yesterday, I was at SJ, waiting for a friend to show up dinner. Since I finish work at 4pm on fridays, I got there earlier. I need to kill time, so i went to this readers corner.. Talk about wanting to escape the "romance" category of books. You can't, its everywhere... aisles and aisles of it. As fate has it, I had to give in to temptation. I borrowed 2 instead of 1. hehehe.

Anyhow, I will be stronger the next time I return the books :) but at least I still have The Avenger one to read , rito? I, at least made the effort. WAHAHAHAHA.

Obesity

Recently, I have been looking at myself in the mirror and thinking, I really need to do something about all these love handles. Sometimes when I walk I feel like my tighs are rubbing together. That really scares me mannnnnnnnnnnn........... I dont' want to be fat!!!! Seriously, I have nothing against people are on the heavier side but I feel its to difficult to be in that category at times. Don't you think so?

Have you observed how tired they are even when they take a short walk. Every step seems like a torture. Even sitting and getting up.

I am not skinny and I only can recall that during my primary and secondary school i was on the slim slide. This was becoz I used to be active in sports - netball ( playing center, had to run alot), badminton, Sprinting - 100 and 200 meters. Those were my sports. But years are catching up with me, I hardly even walk much these days, maybe in the shopping mall and from the car park to my office.

This is really worrying as I DO NOT want to be in the obese category. I mean I have a pouch and sometimes when I sit for long periods, it gets a bit uncomfortable - like when the waistband on your pants just cuts to your flesh? Maybe not cut, but you know what I mean.

I need to seriously do something about it. Since quitting gym about 1 year ago... sigh.. I haven't found something focus my energy on.

Bottom line is I better do something about this before its too late. Esp with age catching up, its even harder to lose that love handles.

Thinking

Lately, I have been thinking about alot of things. Just last nite, I had a dream about friends from secondary school whom I have not even seen in a long long time. Its weird. Totally weird and I can even remember their faces in my dream. I wake up at wee hours of the morning when my body tells me that its not ready to move nor been awaken yet.

I am the sort of person that hardly have a good night sleep these days. My facial lady also told me that my complexion is getting worse and the dark ring around the eyes never seem to go away. Mind you, I have been going to this lady for the past 8 years. Long time huh.

I thought back about why I can't seem to sleep. I think its slightly better than before, the months when I was working at that place eventhough it was only for 3 months. Every night I hardly slept. I remember clutching my rosary at night and praying and asking God to take this away from me esp my fear - the fear of facing another day. Since that time, I think I am slightly better but not totally.

a little out of the topic...............
I remember a person once told me there is a difference between being lonely and being alone. People who are alone - usually choose to be alone. They enjoy the company of the so call alone-ness. Loneliness on the other hand comes mainly from the inside. Its like something really hollow within you. Its like a void inside of you. Dark and quiet. Thats how I feel it sometimes.

But to be frank, I am alone most of the time. I can say that sometimes I enjoy being alone. I dine alone at times even for dinner. Well actually its more than " at times". Its quite often. I dont' care that people stare me or whatever. I am okay with it. But sometimes when the feeling of loneliness engulfs me, I really wished I have company then.

Wouldn't it be great to have someone beside you, walking with you through this journey of life? A journey that seem so long sometimes and filled with trials and turbulence. Tough.

i know I think alot but frankly, my mind just can't cease from thinking. Every waking moment, its working. And not only waking moment , even when I am asleep too. Sigh.

Mysterious Ways

2 Tuesdays ago, I was not feeling well hence I skipped Alpha. Also since I live so far away, I was really really tired almost everyday when I drive back. Also its those days when you tend to think too much and just don't feel like doing the stuff you're doing anymore.

Well, being sick and all, I was also pondering about how tired I am most of the days, so I decided that I will just buy the Alpha DVD and then just do it on my own. For me thats the portion that's really interest me and of course the books I buy.

Then on this monday, I called the number that the lady gave me, but but but the voice on the other end said that the number is no longer valid. Service has ended. Oh goodness.... why did that lady give me a phone number which is no longer valid.

So having no choice, I went for alpha the next day. The first thing I did was to approach the lady and asked her about the phone no. She said oh, we just moved out this week. I was like DANG!

Then thinking further, I thought maybe its all part of God's plan, He doesn't want me to stop going for Alpha so he decided upon this. I bought the DVD anyways. Then during the sharing session after the video session, I shared with my group this.. and I said call it what you want, but don't you think it was a SIGN!!!!

Mysterious huh.......................

Anyways, lately I haven't been feeling really good. About alot of things. This week is kinda bad. I have even decided to talk very much less to my room mate at work which happens to Bonnie M who adds to my misery. So if you're reading this, keep me in your prayers................

American Idol New season

After I took Clarinase last nite, I couldn't sleep. All of a sudden, I just felt so fresh haahhaa.
Maybe becoz my nose started to clear.

I was watching tv and it happened to be American Idol New Season- Audition 2. I was thinking when I was watching, these americans are really brave to make a fool out of themselves. Some of them were so over confident hahaha. But they really really couldn't sing mannnnnnnnnnn....

The thought was running thru my head, I can't imagine being the judge. Maybe now I understand why Simon is so cranky and sarcastic most of the time. Just put yourselves in their shoes, imagine having to put yourself thru those excruciating moments. You can't laugh esp when you're face to face with the contestants... heheh eventhough you're dying to. Your face is about to burst trying to contain the laughter...

Even myself as a viewer at home was laughing like crazy.. hahahaa...

See... that is why I never want to put myself thru that if I did, i think i can never ever get over it.. hahahaha...

Yeah that is why up to today, I am still a kuci muci rat..... at the bottom of the corporate ladder.

The Flu Bug

Alrighty, Its Sat nite, here I am sitting donating my blood to the mosquitoes and nursing this flu. This morning, I was perfectly fine. All of a sudden, after my shower this evening, I started to sneeze and now my nose is pretty much stuffed up.

Tonight is going to be hell. Its bad enough that I have sensitive nose which have me breathing thru my mouth most of the nites since its pretty much not functioning properly as its suppose to be. Eg one side blocked while the other side is barely operable. Get my drift.

Well I have to be really really careful when i get flu. I don't wnat what happened in year 2003 to happen again. 1o days of blinking MC becos of a flu turned sinus infection which almost caused me to have a surgery. Thank God the E&T specialist was good enough and his medication healed me in 3 days.....

What can I say, I pretty much have nothing to do - like most nites. So i decided to write some crap in this blog of mine.

I really do admire those people including G&G who takes time to really beautify their blogs with pictures and custome made templates heehehe.

Maybe maybe just maybe when I am just not me, I might just do that. :)

Tomorrow is sunday, a day which most working adult hates. But what can I say, I need the dough to get going in this world, unless I have already made up my mind about leaving the material world.

Well, there's always still tomorrow to brood....

Given in to Temptation

Sigh.... It won in the end. My will was not strong enough to prevent it from happening.

I told ringgit before that I saw this pair of boots that coz quite a hefty some of money and I was thinking very hard on whether i should buy it. I think its not been more than 1 month. Today I went to the store at KLCC and the shoe is gone!!! Sold out... they only have brown color but I dont' want that color.. its difficult to match. I want black....

So that really made me make up my mind. So I decided to drive all the way to 1 U coz I know I saw it there also. I went there , straight to the store, very focus wor. And I purchased the black color one in size 7. Eventhough the left side of the shoe - not so smooth lah the leather.. but what to do........................................... I didn't want to have sleepless nites about it hehehee.

Really Siow. Next month, eat bread and drink water only. Got to save liao...

Or else there goes my dream of going to Rome......................

The Traffic Cops

I work in the heart of the City. Sometimes, its good, coz its feels like you're so much part of the cosmopolitan world then again sometimes it just gets to your nerves esp the traffic.

For the past few days, the traffic has been horrendous. I leave home at 6.40am in the morning, sometimes 5 minutes late will cause alot of difference. For the past few days I arrived at the office like 5 min to 8am. I start work at 8am. So i have to quickly go to the cafetaria at 6th floor to eat.... and the food is pricey and sucky :(.

To go home too, it takes like almost an hour to get out of the city area. Beh tahan! worse thing is there are cops at the traffic lights but not manning traffic but busy summoning people. Sigh. With that when they stop the cars, its already blocking off 1 lane. Left with the two lanes and to top that up , its knock off hours traffic. Can you imagine how bad that is....

Gosh i drive automatic car but my knee still hurts like crap.

GRRRRRRRRRRRR

Ranch Dressing

I love Ranch dressing. What is it? Dressing that you put on your salad!!!! :P
Well, i don't care what people say about ranch dressing - its fatting, its too rich. Whatever, its still my favourite dressing.

You can hardly find Ranch Dressing here in Malaysia. The more popular ones are Thousand Island, French dressing blablablaa. Anyways, I found it here at TMC but it cost bloodeee 22 ringgit. ain't worth it man.............

The last ones I had were purchased by friends for me from singapore and USA. Both cheap cheap in those countries leh..... But here gosh... i don't think I can swallow 22 ringgit ranch dressing.

How depressing..................

Remembering Her.....

For the past few days, I have been thinking about her. When I do, tears just welled up in my eyes. Even when I am driving , sometimes the thought of her just shows up in my mind. Its been like that off and on since 8th September 2004.

Its been 3+ months since Sarah departed from us. Sometimes just thinking about her, I can see her smile, I remember her walk, her laughter, her eyes. I see her the image of her when she was healthy and also the image of when she was really really ill. Almost unrecognizable and even her daugther said she looked like an alien. That was how bad the disease was eating her up.

Even now writing this, my tears cannot stop flowing. I wonder really, it has been so hard for me to even think about her without crying, I wonder how is it like for my brother and the children? My brother is probably sufferring in silence.

Recently, Anthony heard the song coco mo ( i dont' know whats the exact title of the song), the one that goes, "theres a place call coco mo, and there's where I wanna go....." was playing on the radio and he quickly ran to my mom telling her " That's my mummy's favourite song" and then he said, I miss my mummy. My mom asked him, Do you miss ah ma? He said, I see ah ma everyday how I can miss ah ma. So he understands the meaning of missing. Missing someone who will never be back to hold him , to cuddle him.

I hope my memories of her will always stay fresh in my mind. Even in years to come, i want the memories to remain fresh in my mind..... I dont' want it to fade.

I hate it when people say, Life goes on, move on with life... Yes thats true. But if they never really went thru it how would they know. Yes you move on with life, but it will always be part of you, you think back, you miss the moments. You miss that person who has been part of your family, part of your every life and now no longer be able to share it with you.

Eventhough we are not blood related but still.. there is a tie.
I cannot imagine one day when its time for my parents to depart this world, what state would I be in then.

I miss her. I wish I could bring back the times and let her know that I care..... I think she knows in a way, coz I had visions of her from the time her body was brought back to the house till the day she was burried. On the morning of the funeral, I saw a vision of her waving to me with Jesus standing at the back. I know she is with Jesus.

I miss you , Sarah.
Keep watching us from above. Keep the children safe and Koko safe too...

Feeling Left Behind

This morning, I had the wedding mass to attend. All the way, to Holy Rosary Church in Brickfields. Anyways, I feel so left behind , each time I attend a wedding. One by one friends I knew from Choice is getting married. I feel so SAD :(

Seeing some of them already becoming mummy it just reminded me of the time when I attended their wedding, didn't seem like so long ago.

I hate it.. I hate it.. I hate the feeling!!!!!

I watched Bridget Jones Diary - the part II. At the end she will get married too and she mentioned that at 33 there is still hope in finding happiness.!!!!! Please let that be true!

The Leisure Ladies

Today marks the last day of my training. Its also Friday. As I sat at the coffee shop, eating my nasi lemak and drinking my hot milo, I was observing the people around.

Right infront of me were 4 ladies, i would say they are much older than me. Than again, I might not know, they might look older but they might actually be younger :P. Anyways, I have always enjoyed " naturalist observation". There were dressed in workout outfits. Some rich poh poh must be. Anyways, they were sitting down chatting but I could hear that their conversation only goes around money. How much is this lah is that lah. blablba... And one lady showing off what she bought. And this is just 8.30am!?!?!? when I am still thinking what heck the meaning of life is to me. What the heck works means to me. Mama mia...

I feel jealous, i wish I can be a lady of leisure too. No need to worry, just go about with my daily life , doing things that I like and of course enjoy yet there is no need to worry about money troubles. Wouldn't that be a bliss..

Today ends the training session. I have to say, eventhough the training was too advanced for me but at least the instructor was not bad looking hahahaa..

but I feel darn tired.

The Ugly side of our society

So there, Tsunami has already happened. Everywhere till today, the news is still focusing on the after math of the event. Organizations are still collecting money and such.
We hear about all these generous malaysians - donating money and also used clothes.

Hmmm... so generous rite until they actually donate old underwear, false teeth... Whats up with that man. Electrical appliances that don't work no more is being donated, or faulty ones that almost took someone's life. That is really shallow man. They think of this donating thingy as their dumping ground. So sad to say these are my fellow countrymen. Almost embarassed to even say it or to be afiliated with them.

As I have been away for training this week i found another ugly side of these so called professionals. As we all know, everyone likes it when we can actually claim our mileages when we go training and such or meals what so ever. But i can't believe it how people actually react to these so called freebies.

We are not even sure yet whehter this can be claimed as we are receiving different information from long time employees whom are also in the training. But some really kiasu ppl already like spend like as though they can claim. Worse thing is this indian guy well actually he is the male bonnie I was talking about in my previous blogs. Anyways, after he and this other malay guy found out can claim for lunch also ( we are just assuming that the information given is true), they bought 2 burgers for lunch and ate like pigs. I am just thinking Bonnie M doesn't even eat lunch sometimes coz he wants to save money. But when people offer him food or anything he will grab and grab.

This is not the first time I have seen this behaviour in Bonnie M. Even when we went for orientation, he tah pow the food back. My Goodness.. I am sure the company pays him reasonable pay. I think this is just a northern thingy. People from north very kiam siap. Anyways...... i am so shy to be seen with people like that. Really behave like uneducated people lah.

I hate this ugly side of asians.... why do we need to be like that.. Why do we need to be behave really like second class people and just affirms what the westerners think about us?!?!?!

What is Alpha

Alrighty, since I wrote about Alpha, some has asked me what it is? :)
So jackey, here is what the brochure wrote :). I will attempt to add value to what is said in the brochure but then again I am new too to this program.

Okie dokie, I will cut and paste the information i got. At least that's the formal one, heheh.

What is Alpha?
The Alpha Course is an 11 week practical introduction to the Christian faith. It is relaxed, non-threatening, thought-provoking, friendly and fun. Listen, learn, discuss and discover. Ask anything. Alpha is a place where no question is regarded as too simple or too hostile.

Who is Alpha for?
Alpha is for everyone, especially
those who want to find out more about Christianity
new Christians
those who want to brush up on the basics
those who want to be more effective in sharing their Christian faith

What is involved?
The Alpha Course consists of a series of fourteen video talks by Nicky Gumbel (see schedule at the back). After each talk, participants are divided into small groups for a time of discussion and interaction. A meal and refreshments will be served at each session.

What will it cost?
There is no charge for Alpha although freewill contributions are welcome.


So you ask, why then does mystic_grey needs to go. She is already a christian. Let me share with you why I was interested in this program. What caught my eye.

There are a few topics which are discussed in Alpha program and during the introductory program... it was mentioned... Everyone has Questions about life!!!! YUP YUP YUP thats me.... blinking like a bright bulb.

And one of the topics listed was "How Can I make the most of the rest of my life?"

Yes thats what i want to know! I have mentioned to friends before that I feel like my life is meaningless. Last year was the worse year of my life. The year where I even considered ending my life. Ironically that was also the year that I felt God presence so close to me like I never felt before. I have been questioning about life for a long time and my purpose here.

Couple of years ago, I was so adamant to find out more about what does it mean for me being a christian; not only as a Christian but also as a Catholic. Maybe its good that I give a bit of background of how I became a Christian.

My mom has always been a catholic. Her whole life, all her sibillings up to her grandmother; my great grandmother. When mom married dad (who is by the way, a free thinker and still is), she didn't go regularly to church anymore. But we have always been taught about her faith. About how to say our father, hail marys , about st.anne's feast and such. When I was in standard 4 , I decided to go to sunday school - following one of my friends. My mom wasn't too happy about the idea as she thought that now, the priest and all will come after her for not sending us for sunday school. It was the one and only one sunday school class i attended.

Then I guess God opened up her heart, when I was in secondary school, I went to learn with a sister at the convent school together with my elder brother and my sister. My younger brother, was the only special person :) well he went to sunday school, baptised when he was young. Even before that day, I went regularly to church. I found my belief.

I was asked once during my philosophy class by the professor : you're a christian, how do you know there's a God! You haven't seen God before. I remembered clearly the answer I gave him. I said, yes I haven't seen God but its like the air, do you see it? you don't right? yet you know its there, you know of its existence. That's how God is. You just know and its faith.

DEEEP huh!!! i remember that till today.

Back to the story, its not easy being a catholic nor a christian, every step of the way, you're scrutinized. People watch you closely - to point out the mistakes that you do and always the infamous phrase " But you're a Christian" yea I am a christian but I am also human. Everyday I strive to be good christian. Also being a catholic who was baptised only when I was a teenager, you get fellow catholics asking you " ooooohhh so you're not a cradle catholic" whatever that means... so who's born a catholic :P At least I had the chance to choose my faith and a faith I know I would follow throughout my life.

My journey as a Christian has its ups and downs. Some days I am just way high up there spiritually, some times I am just down to the pits. Couple of years ago, I decided, I want to be involve in the church, to know the community that I am part of. So it began - a journey of search. That year, I took the discipleship class, tough tough... read the bible, do home work, attend weekly classes. then after that I took the sign language class with the hearing impaired ministry. Still search for which ministry God wants me to serve. On top of that, I also went for Choice. Choice is another story :) but its the ministry for single adults. A ministry where I served for 3 years.... and then recently decided to find something else... I am still searching for the ministry God wants me to serve.

See even as a baptised Catholic, I still search for answers. Therefore alpha I believe will unearth things I never knew before or knew but never put it into the right place.

I am not perfect nor am I all knowing about my faith. I am not ashame to say this as I believe - Any sort of knowledge will help me grow closer too God.

This Alpha program is actually a Protestan program but now its reached the shores of the catholic church and its all about faith not about whether you're catholic , protestan or .... other denomination. Jesus is for everyone.

Nicky Gumble is the person who pioneered the Alpha program. He wasn't a christian before but now he is and pastor whats more. The things he says truely makes sense.

In one of the books - Why Jesus? he wrote this.

Christianity is first and foremost about relationships rather than rules. It is about a person more than a philosophy. Its about the most important relationship of all : our relationship with God who made us. .........

Why do we need HIM?

You and I were created to live in a relationsip with God. Until we find that relationship there will always be something missing in our lives. As a result, we are often aware of a gap. One rock singer described it by saying: " I 've got an emptiness deep inside"........... People try to fill this emptiness in various ways. Some try to close the gap with money, but that does not satisfy... Others try drugs or excess alcohol or secual promiscuity..... ................. Nothing will fill this gap excet the relationship with God for which we were made....

So do you think its true? I think thats so rite. I feel that emptiness inside me eventhough I know God. maybe I dont' know God deep enough. Maybe I dont' trust enough. Or maybe my relationship with HIM isn't deep enough. Yes, that's my goal to build a closer relationship with HIM.

Like I told a friend before, I want to do something where by the end of the day, I feel that I have done a good job , helped someone, changed someone's life or even to have the slightest impact in another person's life. Wouldn't life be worth living then?

Prayer of Abandonment

Today in the church bulletin this was in it...

PRAYER OF ABANDONMENT

Father, I abandon myself into your hands;

do with me what you will.

Whatever you may do, I thank you: I am ready for all, I accept all.

Let only your will be done in me, and in all your creatures

- I wish no more than this, O Lord.

Into your hands I commend my soul;

I offer it to you with all the love of my heart,

for I love you, Lord, and so need to give myself,

to surrender myself into your hands without reserve,

and with boundless confidence,

for you are my Father.

- Charles de Foucauld.

I have no idea who Charles de Foucauld is but this prayer is really meaningful. I need to say this more often as to surrender myself to God so that I will be able to hear HIM speak to me regarding this will.

I truely admire people who can write such beautiful prayers. I only speak to God directly as I am not fanciful with my words.... maybe one day I will be able to write such beautiful prayer and dedicate it to my Lord.

Fr. G's last sermon at our parish

As usual, at 6.30am I woke up to attend mass at 7.30am. You must be wondering why so early.. Coz i need to leave my house by 7am inorder for my granny who is over 80 years old to get a seat at the front pew.

For years I have been attending church at this hour. During my years as a church goer, I have to admit there were times where I tried to sneak a few winks, or sometimes trying to hide behind the person in the front pew so that the priest who is standing at the altar upfront dont' catch me sleeping or rather napping!?!?

But of course, the years where I was away from home; studying in the US, I went to church at a much later time. Not becoz i couldn't wake up but their mass times are much later. Well, I could choose not to go church rite? Away from parents and such but I WANTED to go. As there's the only place I can draw strength from God and feel renewed to start another week on this earthly place.

But in the recent years, God has been good, He sent us really dynamic and those really really charasmatic priest. FR. G is one of them. He has been with us almost 4 years now. He was previously based in penang at the college general (well this college is for upcoming priest) as a lecturer. I bet he is a good one. He knows the bible so well and his interpretation is fantabulous. I will that. Over these 4 years, I have enjoyed his every sermon. Further to that, Fr. G sings really well too. He has a deep voice.... He sings during the consecration and also during the times where the mass ended and he is giving his blessings.

I will miss Fr. G. But Fr. G is someone who is huge. When I say huge i mean in size too ah! Meaning he is tall and big. He can be quite intimidating. He has proud streak in him too. But I want to look beyond that. I haven't had the chance to sit and talk to him. But I hope one day God will send a priest to the parish whom I can talk to. I would like to talk to him then about what are my options in serving God. Not in terms of joining the convent but in terms of probably doing missionary work.

I will miss Fr. G's sermons.... but God has other plans for him rite? Moving him back to be a full time lecturer at College General once more.

I have a friend who left for Kenya to do missionary work. She quit her job and just like that she is going to kenya. I met her during my discipleship class which took one whole year to complete. That was a class i never thought i could be so dedicated. But am proud to say I graduated with only missing 2 classes. That was about more than 2 years ago!!! Wow how time flies aye.?

So now I am embarking on Alpha Program. But alpha is abit different. Will talk more about alpha in another log..........

That's my thought on this sunday morning... am gonna go take a nap now.

All That Is Material!

I , mystic_grey was not born with a silver spoon stuck in her mouth! I was born into a family who's dad works really hard while mom stays home to care for the children. Mom was not allowed to work after she married my dad, coz my dad believes the children needs her. Being the second youngest in the family, I usually have to wear hand me downs from both my elder sister and elder brother. Be it t-shirts, jeans or whatever. I occasionally get my own new clothing.

I would say that I am not a person who go for a certain brand or expensive stuff just becoz its CK, Guess or whatever not! At one point in my life, I never stepped foot in these shops coz in my mind, I always had this voice saying that I cannot afford it. But as years go by, I managed to gather courage and walk to these shops. There are things that I can certainly afford but some things are just totally over priced. But sometimes you see something you really like. For me, I will probably think about it a thousand times before I buy.... But if I saw something really unique and i know that going back to the shop would only mean it won't be there anymore - I would probably buy it there and then.

So mystic_grey is one person who goes for things that she likes. For example, if she sees something she likes at pasar pagi, she would buy, she doesn't care if its from pasar pagi or if its cheap as long as its presentable and wearable - who give two hoots. So I have a mixture of things but for shoes, I am willing to spend but so far have not spend on anything beyond 200 though.

See I have friends who still think that if its not branded , its of low quality. I still remember how they used to give me the look (those look where they raise their noses and look at your funny, hahaha) when they say, hey nice pants - where did you get it from. I will say, eh my mom bought it at pasar pagi. They will go like.. FOR REAL! Yes, its for real, ding dong.

At this new work place too, there is this gal she would save save to buy branded things. So she told a colleague. She rather have branded things which last longer than those normal cheap things.. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. she went like mystic, dont' you agree. I just smiled. Okie why did I do that? Coz firstly, its just my first month there. Secondly, its none of my blinking business to tell her.. Its her bloodeee money! :P

If you know me, i am a simple person. I love living in my jeans. And If I can just dress in my jeans and Ts everyday, I would be in a very blissful state. I am also not that sort of person who spends hours and hours in the bathroom? What do they do there? Scraping something off their skin? Skin Renewal in the bathroom?

Anyways, its just me the simple living small town gal......................

Much Ado About Bonnies

Alrighty!!!!! Bonnie bonnie....

Just 2 days ago, I received an email from an ex-col. She mentioned that my bonnie at the previous co. The lady bonnie, has tendered her resignation. Not bad aye, managed to get a new job eventhough she has a sucky attitude hahaha. I bet this was a real hit in the face for the big boss which evidently was my ex-boss. Bonnie used to report to me and i have to say man... she is one hand full. But at least she found her way out from the shit hole that is really covering her up and suffocating her. Alot of people dislike her but ironically, they always look for her to get a job done for them. Very bad!!!

Anyways, reading this new male bonnie at work.. hmm.. he is another story altogether. Okie this bonnie dont' report to me lah. We are the same level. As after being a snr. manager for 3 months I decided that that's not the path I am ready for. So I settled for this job as just a kuli hehehehe... Anyways, this male bonnie, is really liked by my female boss. The weird thing is Bonnie M always disappear during working hours. Mind you - he goes missing for a long period of time. Like yesterday, he went for lunch at 11.30am. Then I didn't see his face until 3pm and then at 4pm he went back. Right on time... Can you believe it. And he says he got so much work. Aiyah Keling yan.

Anyways, that's none of my business but yesterday, the secretary was looking for us meaning all 3 people who sits in the tiny pigeon hole. I was in the lab since i came back from lunch at 1.30pm but I locked the room as things get missing and noting that the other two was not back from lunch , i didn't want to take the risk of having something stolen from the room.

So you see... the secretary was checking on us. She eventually found me in the lab but she didn't say no nothing to me... FISHY!!!!!!

Anyways, boss was back yesterday after a more than 2 weeks vacation..... maybe she is the spy for the boss....

But what is mind boggling is how can bonnie M escape the attention? MIA for 1 hour is understandable but for HOURS? Thats nuts.

Anyways, Bonnie M will be flying either to UK or US for Work transfer program. SEE BE a CHEAT , BE EVIL, you will always get compensated in this WORLD :P

Blogging

Blogging - It was never a thing that I thought I would actually do. I have been reading about blogging for awhile. But never really was interested in doing it.

Then sometime during mid last year while I was going thru frustrations in life, ringgit introduced me to blogging. He said just blog your feelings - be it anger or whatever. So it started from then.

I have a few favorite blogs which i read on a regular basis. My friend in Sydney introduced me to a blog which was written by a malay datin. It was very interesting blog. Alot of people read her blogs and alot of comments too. She eventually stopped writing as people started to send her nasty comments. I mean she writes about true things like how her step daughther a mere teenager already engaged in sexual activities and such.. she was very truthful and for that she was crucified. She stopped writing now. Actually she stopped writing since september last year. I kinda miss her blogs. I used to wait eagerly for her next update.

It was also from datin's blog that I chance into odissi's blog. I still remember the first time I told ringgit about the blog and I mentioned that odissi writes really really well. And I kena hantam from ringgit. Ringgit said that of course she writes well, she is a journalist. Of course I know DUH. I was admiring how well she writes and i am sure everyone wish that they can write that well too. Reading ringgit's blog I realized that he too reads her blog these days hahaha. Addictive aye?

Anyways... blogging is part of my life now but of course at times I also go thru the phase where I don't feel like blogging. The days where I feel really low and like ringgit always says.. dont' pass your negativy to others.. :( Maybe all I need is a listening ear but not really to get symphaty.

With No Car is like you're Feet has been amputated

Okie, I am sufferring the syndrom of not having the convenience of a car. Since, my car is in the hospital, I had to play on people's sympathy to loan me their car. Last week, I drove my younger bro's car to work since he was on leave. Since he is working, i can't parasite on him no more. Thought of talking the long train ride really make me so sien that I didnt' feel like going to work.

So my good old dad decided to loan me his car. Okie he drives a big car and it drinks fuel like water.... Chia lat leh. But i can't complain or else I will have to end up taking the train. But of course this "fantastic" arrangement will only last for a few days. I will end up taking the train to work on wed onwards unless my good dad decides he pities his little girl(hahaha) and allows her to carry on driving his car.

Tomorrow, I have no choice but to drive as its the beginning of my alpha class. Sigh... no car is like no legs lah. Really i don't really like to drive other people's car coz theres this pressure of having to be extra careful.

Anyways, alpah class will be good for me...... hopefully it will bring even closer to God.

My New Year's Day

The new year has begun. And how did I spend it? Well, woke up at 8.30am. Left home at 9.25 to catch a train(commuter) to PJ. Was suppose to met up with friends for a gift exchange session and also to watch The Phantom of the Opera.

I was surprised at 9.35 when i board the train, I still managed to get a seat. Maybe this is becoz i live quite far away - the station I am at is quite far away from KL. Anyways.. once we reached some of the places where there are more of those "pow tao" people, the train was jammed packed. The worse was when we reached S.A. Totally totally mind boggling - so many of them...

These people really dungu case. They stand so close to the door. When I was about to reach my station to alight. I step forward and said excuse me but none moved so I have to push my way thru and the "pow tao" gals immediately said.. aduih aduih.. ouch ouch. In my heart i was like then move your bloodee big arses so I can move.!!!!!

anyways, The Phantom of the Opera was worth watching. The actors are both good looking. The song is good too. Surprising , I just found out the guy who acted as the Phantom was actually the same actor from Tomb Raider. Wow what make up can do to your face. But their voices were great!!!!!

The day ended with my friend who is kind enough to drive me back from PJ to home..... long way mind you. But it was a great day....

Next on the agenda is playing board games- cluedo and pictionary at one of the gals house. Probably some time next week.